Fortune cookie!

I'm an impulsive person, sometimes to crazy degrees.  I decide I want to do something and I want to do it now, immediately.  That's so not good. 

I'm reading a book called, "Band of Angels" I may have the title wrong.  It's about nurses in the Philippines during WW2.  I love books on War nursing, there's just no greater calling for a nurse, for me.  Other nurses may feel different about it. 

So anyway I'm reading this book (I haven't finished it yet)... and my dad has suggested it before (we have a military family history).  That I should join the Navy and become a Navy nurse.  And darn if I don't want to.  Of course, I'm scared.  But I'd *love* to sail on a Navy hospital ship for six months (I believe its required.)  The best part of even considering it (and I am thinking about it though probably not seriously) - as a practicing nurse, there's a 20K sign-on bonus available with a 3 year contract.  That's amazing.  

• The first time is an accident.  The second time is gross stupidity.  
• I hate my job when it involves confused people who like to hit you and pull out all their fancy tubes.

• I've got it!  My 2009 NanoWriMo idea is here!   I had a brilliant brainstorm last night. 
• I've wanted to do a fanfic Nano, so this year, I got a great idea planted in my brain.  I'm (hopefully) going to draft up ideas and an outline tonight whilst at work.
• Its a Bleach fic!  Shunsui x Nanao all the way! 

• Otakon is this Friday, not today, but next friday.  I don't get to leave my house until 6 pm, so that's going to suck.  I'm really, really not ready this year.  They're going food shopping without me tonight because I have to work, I really feel left out.  Grocery shopping for our convention trips is so much fun.
• I was up late reading HP fanfiction again.  For no good reason.
• Yesterday I was working on my Tomoyo costume.  I ended up redoing the neckline eight times, but it is lovely.  I'll post pictures later, once I finish the hems.  I think I may add lace to the sleeves, her costume doesn't have lace, just ruffles, but it might look nice.
• I found out the most amazing news, I'll have my car paid off before Christmas!  *dances
• Finished my paper for Economics, I was really disappointed in myself.  I need to find the calendar and find when the last withdraw day, I really, really want to drop this class, but I hate doing work for something and not finishing it. 
• I've entered a mini-stage of perfectionism.  I'm not one by nature, but occasionally I have these moods where everything has to be perfect and its getting on my nerves.

• Why does the serving staff of a restaurant usually hand the check to the male at your table?  I've encountered this numerous times, including today.  Waiter gave check to my brother - I paid the bill - then he gave him the receipt to sign.  Excuse me?  I'm not offended, but I don't like this behavior.
• I'm thinking about going on a cruise.  I'm really honestly considering it, I think I may start researching it a bit.
• My braces have given me a terrible sore inside my right cheek. It's healing, its no longer a gaping hole, but it still hurts.  Salt water rinses work wonders.  And then I discovered orajel works pretty well if you don't get on your tongue.
• Paper due friday.  I might want to start writing that soon... unfortunately, Overlord is calling my name.  For now, the Wii takes priority, the paper will wait.

I was bored, so I went and turned on the Wii Nintendo channel to peek at new stuff. 

Oh my!

Overlord!

I ran out to Gamestop to pick it up. 

Best game I ever paid the full price for (except maybe Twilight Princess.)

I'm dreadfully bored...

• Eating Runts by Willy Wonka is probably a bad idea.   I don't want to break more brackets. 
• The dog ate my sewing pattern.  I don't mourn the pattern so much as I wish I'd taken the sleeve out of the envelope before she ate the rest of it. She's also eaten books, prescription glasses (x2), and chewed through valuable cording, such as headphones and camera cables.  She's a menace.
• Do you know someone who only likes people for how useful they are to them?  I know one.  It was one of those rare, instant things where I knew I didn't like someone.  They're leaving very, very soon and I feel guilty about the fact that I won't miss this person.  Occasionally, they're bearable company, but most of the time being around them is, quite frankly, shitty.  So goodbye, good luck, I won't miss you but I feel bad about feeling that way. 
• I have a sewing project to finish.  The neckband needs sewn on and then the two decorative collars I'm attaching.  It's not a kimono.  I think I'm going to take off the sleeves though and substitute them with a different choice, I really don't like how they came out.  Of course, I stopped following the pattern and sort of went my own way, but either way the shape was wrong, so its not like it mattered a whole lot.  Maybe I'll hop out to the sewing store to look at sleeve patterns.

I'm not leaving Friday, July 17th until 1815 - unless I plan to drive myself to Otakon and I'm pretty sure that isn't happening.  Me whining about it isn't going to change it either but I still do it.  Good thing I didn't ask for Thursday off, at least I'll have Friday to sleep while my riding companions work.
Yes, it's immature, no I'm not getting over it. 

 

( Possible SPOILERS: Skin Trade by Laurell K Hamilton.  )


Bed time.  I have work tonight.

Again.

I should change the title of my  journal to reflect my love of lists.  I'll work on that later.

• Work.  Work. Work. 
• She thought he kept telling her he needed to go to "the morgue" to get new classes.  That's not what he said at all.
• We're overflowing with fruit.  Seriously. Blueberries, bananas, cherries, peaches, plums, and cantaloupe.
• My dad threw my pumpkins last year out in the yard instead of the trash can. They SPROUTED!  Yes!  (I have a strange and peculiar love of pumpkin.  This year I will be cooking with them.  I might even get around to making my Harry Potter pumpkin juice.  That's the plan!)
• I need to pay my credit card.
• Went for sushi on Friday night and I didn't have to pay for it, yeah! (I always feel guilty when other people pay though.)
• I didn't exactly avoid them on purpose, but I kinda sorta did so now I feel bad about it.
• Everyone in my house has sort of an assigned parking spot.  My brother came in from Arizona so now the driveway is like playing tetris to get in and out. :D
• I would like to stay home tonight, if you could pretend I was there and pay me anyway, that'd be great.
• Night.

• My patient died last night.  It wasn't a surprise; we've been waiting for her to go, but I always hate it when people die who are mine.  It's the only contact I've had with the dead, which may sound odd.  At one point my aspiration in life was to be a coroner, a forensic examiner.  Its eerie to gaze into the face of one you knew alive who is simply no longer there.  There's an incredible stillness, to the face, the chest.  All signs of life simply stop.  It was the very time I ever determined for myself, without calling another nurse because I was scared, that a patient was actually dead.  (Prouncement is the job of the doctor, but the nurse is the first person who knows.) Her eyes were open, there was a tear on her face.  She died very peacefully.  I'm always very respectful of the dead.  I believe in the soul, heaven, and hell - but how soon after departure from the body the soul passes to judgement I do not know, so I'm always strangely leery about that person's soul still being nearby.  And hospitals are haunted places.  Though I've not seen them, and struggle to see them in supposed photos, I believe in ghosts.
• My Xbox is still in the box outside my room.  Yeah, I need to do something with that.
• I bought DDR for the Wii.  FUN!  (When they say 'workout' they're really not kidding.)
• Why is it everyday I was off this week it rained and I couldn't get in my pool!?
• My older brother is in from Arizona.  He flew in yesterday and arrived after I'd gone to work. 
• I'm off to bed.  We're going out for dinner.  Probably not all of us, probably just me, younger brother, and brother's gf.   Sushi night.  It had better be someone else's turn to pay.
• .....I have such a headache.

FedEx you wonderful mail service, you! 

Coca-Cola, you deserve daily love letters!


I GOT MY X-BOX PRIZE! 

(I won an X-box from Coke, I've been waiting for it forever.)

• I haven't answered the teacher yet if that last email of his required an answer.  I'm still not sure what to say to him.  
• iTunes is still a train wreck and I'm greater than 1,000 songs short. 
• Bought new batteries for the wii fit but never did put them in there.
• Asked my family to wake me for dinner because I was taking a nap, instead they went out to eat without me.  Okay.
• My aunt was supposed to call, she never did.  I wonder what about?
• Dr. Pepper is giving away a 2010 Chevy Camaro and I want that car.  My chances of getting it are so impossible.
• The chances of me buying a DDR title for the 360 or the Wii tomorrow is high.  Heck, I might go tonight.
• Now, I am going to figure out the linking system in this convolution program.

NO!


The test was not due on the 12th!  It was due on the 9th!  I checked the dates very clearly.


Why are we still discussing this?  I'm not used to teachers being so wishy-washy.  You can't change the rules.   Are there rules I don't know about?  Give me a fucking zero and leave me alone.

1. My posts have become numbered.  No, I didn't go back and re-title the 300 posts before with numbers.  And I won't.
2. Sometimes I hate my job.  Confused people are right at the top of the list of things I really, really dislike.  It sounds harsh until you have to deal with the horror that is confusion in adults.  I have 2 days left.  No, there's no way I'm working Monday night, that would be 4 nights in a row. 
3. I've never in my life been so glad I was born a female as I was last night.  I do not see the appeal of standing up to urinate and I'm really not going to elaborate on this because I can't remember why I found this so terrible.  Just the sentiment sticks with me.
4. She's so freaking cute.  There are some elderly people in the world that just scream "hug me" and she's one of them.  An unusual sentiment from me, a person who avoids physical contact with people to a rather striking degree. 
5. It never ceases to amaze me the absolute candor some people with discuss their life with you because you're a nurse.

1. He reset the test for me.  I clicked on the link in Firefox and it locked up.  Again.  I am getting a ZERO for test one. 
2. Work.  Oh, I must work tonight with those crazy patients.  Again.
3. I have not narrowed down my research topic yet.  Maybe Hybrid cars (even though that sounds abysmally boring.)
4. Maybe I can write about the absurdity of carbon credits.  Wait, better not, I don't like controversial ideas in school work, too risky.
5. Orthodontist put rubber bands back on my teeth.  I was hoping to get rid of them, no such luck.  Now I have to wear the left set 24 hours a day.  Yay for me.
6. Oh, bills... I might want to pay those: car insurance, car payment (plus equipment fees for oil change, wiper replacement, and oil filter), and of course, my school bill due on the 16th.  I need to set up automatic payment for that.
7. It's 4:25, I think I'm not getting back to sleep before work tonight and that sucks.

1. iTunes is royally screwed.  I deleted the entire library, so now its just a matter of repopulating it. 
2. I finally got xampp working. 
3. I actually had to consult the user's guide to get Joomla installed though, wow.  Menu's are confusing!
4. Work Monday.
5. Work Tuesday.
6. I found a house I love.  306 Hall.  It's got an in-ground pool; I love the neighborhood.
7. I'm in the middle of too many activities!
8. My pool water is clear and beautiful.
9. And... is that enough?

I'm supposed to be looking at houses - but my mom is mysteriously not in the kitchen.  This might mean she's angry at me or it might mean she's working on the dishwasher with my dad... because it's been pulled out from beneath the cabinet. 

I needed to move iTunes which was cresting over 49GB off my internal HD to an external HD.  I've moved the physical directory of iTunes before but I didn't do it the same way this time (wouldn't have remembered how either way.)  So, while it's totally moved, all the damn files in the program and broken, so it's totally fucked up.

I swear, if I do nothing else today, I am paying my car insurance, I am downloading the software from Rick, and I am emailing the guy.  I will do it.  I will not be accused of being lazy ( though they didn't accuse me of it ).  I can't help but thinking I made the guy think I didn't like him and since he really has grown on me a lot I don't want to offend him (because I really do like him)... especially since he's taking such great care of my aunt.  

*Determined!

.........first I better find my mom though.

Someone planted the idea on me yesterday: Inutaisho x Kagome. I, adoring all things twisted, fell in love with the idea, especially since Sesshoumaru x Kagome has fallen into such disfavor with me due to its sheer, overwhelming popularity.  I went hunting for fiction, intrigued.  I found bad fiction and I found disturbing fiction, but this did not deter me.   Somehow this led me to Kaname x Yuuki from Vampire Knight, the authors of which (some) are exceptionally good.  Kaname is hot and I would love to write something to play with the intensity of his character, but that is neither here nor there. 

Working my way through Vampire Knight fiction and with sunrise approaching, I started to write.   Bad temptation that... to take a pen to twisted thoughts.  If it wasn't cresting 6:30 I would stay awake and continue the journey, but alas, I'm 1500 words in on a project I do not need.  In any case, the title has made itself useful to me, as I'm calling this twisted perfection The All Windows.


On a semi-related side note, I have co-ventured into Legend of Zelda fandom with Lèse majesté, a project being constructed at the private journal castle_town .

I'm off to bed.

"It sounds like you're onto an interesting idea, I look forward to hearing more about it once you narrow it down." <-- That does not sound like approval for my paper idea, that sounds like "narrow it down and please resubmit it." Darn!

I went to Wal-mart to do some shopping. And some returning. After washing Saji last week I got water beneath my watch-face so all weekend I stared at blurry numbers. This morning I found the most beautiful watch; I love it. It's almost as pretty as my Lenox Crystal Butterfly watch.

I got chlorine and filters for the pool. The water was green for a few days, it still needs filtered but its looking much better. So after getting all my stuff and getting home I'm looking around for my cell phone. I need it, chiefly because its my sole communication tool as we have no phone in our house anymore. Its not in my pocket where I had it in the store, its not in my purse. I search the counters then I dash out to the car and search the floors and seats.

Nowhere.

I dash back in the house and rip through my purse again. Yeah, I'm going to the Verizon store tomorrow to look at replacing my phone with a touch phone but I didn't want the reason for replacement to happen like this! My brother is supposed to text me to meet him for lunch!

So I grab my keys dash out to the car again intending to hurry back to Wal-mart to search the parking lot near where I had my car parked. Maybe it fell out. I throw the car into reverse and, on a whim, throw the empty bag in my passenger seat on the floor and *poof*. There is it.

Since I promised to go to lunch with my little brother, I'm going to stay up instead of going to sleep. In fact, I'm going pool-toy shopping. Bye!

Is it too late to change my mind about this whole summer classes thing?  I just realized that classes start tomorrow and I have 1 of my 2 books.  I'm so not ready.

Add to that I'm working Monday -Wednesday and I don't really want to do that either.  I work one day next week, if I tell myself that enough times, maybe that'll make it better.  I'm doubting it.  There's no way I'm getting to the campus bookstore before Thursday morning after work, so I hope I don't need a text just yet.

There's a rather pleasant thunderstorm in progress and even that hasn't cheered me up.  Today was my dad's birthday, I haven't gotten him anything, including a card.  I was awake at 11am, I'll be working all night.  It's all so terribly unpleasant, I can't seem to shake the melancholy feeling. 

It's rather depressing when you feel like you don't want to be bothered by people or obligations.  Especially after I was alone all day long.  There are still things that need to be done and my not wanting to do them isn't going to change the fact that I have to.